RaySantos

Too

2012-02-07T02:36:00.000-08:00

stoked for life

2012-01-04T00:41:00.000-08:00

Even when the sky comes fallin. Even when the sun don't shine. I got faith in you and I.

New year, new start

2012-01-01T14:18:00.000-08:00

As much as I feel that people, including me, shouldn't wait to change or make shit happen for the new year, I feel that after what had happened last week, I have the perfect time to use this new year for a new start. This isn't over. This is actually only the beginning. You're going to see change in me, change in you, and then change in us. You're going to see us grow individually and then into a better us. You're going to need my full trust and I'm going to need yours. Trust me that everything we talked about and promised will be kept. Please keep your promises too, please, PROMISE ME. If you ever need that reassurance from me, call me about it any time of the day, I'll be glad to talk to you. BUT, I expect that time fade over time. New year, new start. Let's make this work.

Thankful

2011-11-28T00:43:00.000-08:00

This Thanksgiving break was real coo. Haven't been home for 3 months, nice little sneak peak for Christmas break, and finally got to take my mind off of school work. It was dope catching up with friends and of course the fam. Seeing a lot of changes and it's real nice to see it.

Took the time to think and realize what I'm thankful for. God has blessed me with the best and I couldn't ask for more.

Oh hey btw, I'm learning a lot from you and I hope you realize that. So thank you.

Back to Cali tonight

2011-11-21T15:58:00.000-08:00

TOOOOO STOKED. It's been about 3 months since I've been back home. 6 more hours till I touch down...

9 months

2011-11-15T01:43:00.000-08:00

We started this relationship 9 months ago and since then its been too good. These past 9 months can say a lot about us but everything before that, our friendship before hand, plus these 9 months is what actually makes us. Our weekend was too good to us and I couldn't ask for more. Thanks for letting me take you out on these dates. I'll be seeing you back home in a week...

Time has flown so fast and I am actually going back home in a week. This is pretty weird, haven't seen anyone back at home for almost 3 months now. This week is going to be a tough week... Papers, projects, and tons of reading. Gona grind this week out and make sure I'm satisfied to go home... I miss everyone back down in socal. It's gona be dope as fck to see everyone again. Ahh, home has never sounded so sweet.

Up late

2011-11-10T03:43:00.000-08:00

Thinking, considering, visioning, realizing, imagining, sensing, visualizing...

I got plans for this weekend. Time is flying fast and I'm real stoked for the next few days.
Wouldn't do this for anyone except you...

2011-10-26T20:49:00.000-07:00

A little confidence and... I guess I got my swagger back.

Adversity x2

2011-10-24T23:05:00.001-07:00

Came back from a groin injury today and I was having a real good practice. Made really good plays left and right, may be a few mess ups but everything was going the right way. All of a sudden I get myself into a bad situation and I turned the ball over. Next time down I passed the ball over someones head and had another turnover. Again, the next time down I passed the ball while someone was jumping in the passing lane and had another turnover. 3 straight turnovers from me. I really pressed the panic button once the first one occurred. In situations like these, I let things get to my head, I over think shit, and then I get the worst out of me. I need to learn how to fuck up, deal with adversity, and come through the next play not making another turnover because I AM better than that. My mental toughness needs to kick in and not press the panic button and turn the ball over. I need to learn how to deal with adversity. Over thinking shit is one of my worst enemies and I need to just relax and ball. I am over this shit. Tomorrow is another day and I'm going to just relax and ball. I am going to make plays, fuck up, relax, and make plays again.

On the other hand. I'm really sorry for making things difficult. We're going through adversity, and we will handle this correctly. I got your back, you got mine. I am happy I am with you.

Adversity x2, gona get through this and things are going to change. Can't wait till tomorrow, new day, tons of shit can happen. I'm widit. Gona attack these challenges how I always do. Confidence.

Things like this...

2011-10-19T02:10:00.000-07:00

Remind me of you, lol.

Let's fast forward to three weeks from now, yea?

Portland, Oregon

2011-10-16T10:45:00.001-07:00

You've been fuckin good to me.

2011-09-28T00:35:00.000-07:00

DONE DID IT.

Now I needa get rid of this cold. Being sick is one of my worse enemies.

The wait...

2011-09-23T01:57:00.000-07:00

Man, its been about 4 weeks into college, and 3 weeks of conditioning. It's crazy how time STILL flies. Well I'm startin to finally get used to the college system, and I still feel that things can go a bit smoother in my classes. Well, 3 weeks of conditioning is about done. As much as I try to avoid thinking about it, the wait is killin me. The roster for the team comes out Monday and I'm really hopin that I made the red shirts. JV doesn't sound so appealing at all. I've done all I can for these past 3 weeks. There are so many upper class men on the team that making it as a red shirt sounds nice to me. I always eat myself up that I feel that I could have worked harder... Fuck it, too late now, I want this spot... BAD.

2011-09-15T02:15:00.000-07:00

That feeling I get when I miss you, look around my room and see things that remind me of you, reminisce on the best days we've ever had, thinking about holding you in my arms, and miss EVERYTHING about you...

I miss you.

Back to the beginning?

2011-09-11T13:54:00.000-07:00

Felt pretty weird seeing you yesterday... BUT, it was actually a GOOD weird. Along with this new start we have at our school and in our lives, it felt as if we met for the first time and just had this natural attraction for each other, whoaaaa. I can get used to this; having such a great feeling inside whenever we see each other. Shitt, I'm widit.

First day of class

2011-08-30T18:19:00.000-07:00

It was pretty easy since it was only one class, but on the real, my english teacher is pretty hard. Don't get me wrong, she's a real dope person, but the work load in her class... Damn.

It will be a dope year this year. cant wait for basketball season to start too. My ass ain't in shape though, FUCK.

Cant wait for my girl to get to Seattle, it seems like it's been forever since I've seen her. When you see this babe... You better hurry your ass up here, it's been forever, is you feelin me?

New Chapter

2011-08-25T22:15:00.000-07:00

Well, I've officially left Cali and I am now in Portland. I have really good feelings about things out here. Leaving was hard, not gon lie. Cried half the plane ride from LA to Portland. Babe's letter got me feelin it and eventually got me goin and I couldn't stop drippin tears down my face. Well, I'll be jotting the joys of life with you too now, better yet we'll be sharing our thoughts that we keep to ourselves. There's a lot of things I'd want to fix about myself and I know the journal you bought me will help. Let's do this together. Hurry your ass and come meet me in the Cascades already, I miss you.

Farewell

2011-08-25T01:45:00.001-07:00

Been through so much this past year with so many people. Crazy how things end up. Never thought I'd leave cali, ever. Well I'm here now and leaving Cali in 5 hours. So many thoughts running through my mind I dont know what to think first. I'm goin to miss so many people that's for sure. Thanks to everyone who made this past year positive one, senior year was no doubt the best. Well today's the BIG DAY. Time to go live my dream and play college ball. I'll be up in the Cascades though, sounds dope if ya ask me.

2011-08-24T01:14:00.000-07:00

I'm ready for this new chapter in life. Yup, it'll be adventurous and exciting. I will make the best of such a great opportunity that God has given me.

2011-08-20T03:38:00.001-07:00

-Everytime I sit and think about us, I feel so amazed every single time. It's as if I never realized feelings can go so far.

-'Tuesdays with Morrie' is a really good book. I love reading life lesson typa shit.

-That go away kb you threw me was dope, thanks again.

-I have 5 days left... That bittersweet fuckin feelin.

-I came to the point that it may take sacrifice to bring the best out of things.

-I love comparing basketball situations to life situations.

-Visiting Concordia was a good idea, I have good vibes about everything.

-I really need to get my ass in shape.

2011-08-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

I am nothing without God. He is so great. Always there for each and every one of us, isn't that comforting? God loves each and every one of us too. All knowing, all powerful, all mighty, you name it. And he's by your side every second of your life.

2 weeks left. Whoa dareee...

Finally fuckin hittin me

2011-08-06T00:56:00.000-07:00

I have 19 days left. I'm about to go through the biggest change in my life. Oh fuck, reality just hit the shit outa me. Whatever comes in my way, I wana be ready; I want you to be ready.

These type of weekends

2011-07-25T02:19:00.000-07:00

Yeaa ima fuckin miss em.

Just what I needed

2011-07-23T02:42:00.000-07:00

Babes been outa town for too long. Nice to be seein her back home. Had ourselves some good quality time spent together just like we wanted with dinner and a movie to go along. It's been a while, but tonight was just one of those great unforgettable nights.

2011-07-12T00:58:00.001-07:00

I can honestly say that I do miss high school and several people in it. Fuck it though, moving on to bigger and better things in life, and times flying faster then ever.

Oh btw, I got a little over one month left, let's make it a good one.

Summer days like these

2011-07-06T01:12:00.000-07:00

Liftin weights at 24, then hoopin/workin in my game, to yoga class, to ending the night by spending quality time with my girl friend.... I love summer weekdays like this.

< 2 Months

2011-06-30T22:40:00.001-07:00

Damn, haven't been up on this for a while.
Ima do my best to get up on this more often...

First things first.. Couple weeks ago I graduated from Nogales High School. Thinkin about it feels fkin dope, Nogales High School alumni right here! I get that weird feelin too though: knowing that fact that I won't ever be in high school again, no lie, shit was fkin fun.

My mouth needs to heal already, it's been to long without lifting a single weight and without playin ball. My body needs it already, I've had enough layin in bed and sittin in the kitchen trying to get myself full. Once this healing process is over... Damn I can't wait to be on that hardwood and in 24.

Blogspot, your way behind. You wont see me at Linfield College. Catch me in Portland, Oregon because I will be attending Concordia University on a partial scholarship to play basketball.. Looks like I'll be living one of my dreams, playing college basketball has been one of those goals since the 7th grade, pretty excited if you ask me.

I'm in love. Never felt anything like this ever. You have such a big impact on my every day life. From a lowkey crush, to a friend, to a good friend, to one of my best friends, to my girlfriend. I honestly feel that saying yes to you on February 12, 2011 was one of the best decisions I've made in my life. Thanks for dealing with my problems, for dealing with me when I'm sick, for supporting me on the court, for lettin me love you, for lettin me show you a side of me that no ones ever seen before, and for all the other countless things that you've done. Still not one bit close to showing you what I got left in me, not even half way, not even a quarter of the way, not anywhere near at all. Last night I accepted the challenge to change things, I'm excited for us, and I'm damn well excited to see things change in me, and for us. You know I love challenges, makes life more exciting as I always say. Everythings gona be fine, matter of fact, everytime I think about us I feel so happy for us. We'll do this individually, but together we'll get there, I know it. I trust in you as much as I trust in me. Things will be changing NOW, I promise myself that. This feelin that I have for us is beyond great. I will always remember this, always... I'm in love <33

Countdown

2011-05-08T23:46:00.000-07:00

I just realized that in a few months I'll be livin by myself, doin stuff on my own, at a place far away from home, and starting the beginning of my adulthood. It's crazy how just a few months ago I told myself I wasn't ready for this, but now, I am all in on this. I have no hesitation now for such a big move in my life. Basketball taught me how to be a hard working cat so I'm all in for what we call this "adulthood." It's gona be a dope experience moving, but damn, there's hella people who I'm going to miss down here.

1. I respect you a ton. Hope you get what you want cause you deserve it. Got hella close to you this year, that relationship we had and have on and off the court... Thanks for being there for me.

2. I'm scared to tell you what I have to tell you, but just know, we learn from our mistakes, ima make sure I don't mess up again. Ima make sure I enjoy what ima do in the next couple of years, and when I'm grown it's my turn to support you.

3. It's crazy how many times we argue and get mad at each other. You lowkey help me out cause your point of view is so effective. Thanks for being the for me and sorry for pissing you off.

4. You really make me see life in a different prospective. I'm always tryna think of ways to do things big now. Your a dope ass inspiration lil nigga.

5. Still stayed a close homie after graduating 8th grade and parting. I know I'm stupid sometimes so thanks for dealing with my shit. You understand me on another level. I respect you alot although I might not show it alot.

6. Dude we've drifted apart. Remember those days we'd get boba together just to kick it and fill each other in on our lives? LOL your gona do it big I know it. I see so much self-motivation in you.

7. Known you for a lil while but you always know what's good with me. You understand me real well like others don't. Lazy ass but yous finna do what you do cause your a true ass nigga.

8. Still hard to believe it'd happen huh? I thank God it did and that patience worked out well though. You've taught me so many things and got me to realize things I never would. One of a kind that I have soo much respect for. I admire your view on life. Ambitious, true to heart as can be, and knows what the fuck is up. I love you <33

2011-05-06T23:58:00.000-07:00

1. This week went by fast as heck.
2. Senior year has 1 more month.
3. I wana find out my financial aid package for Linfield College!
4. Prom in 2 weeks.
5. Going on a date tomorrow ;)
6. Pacqiou fight tomorrow too.
7. Getting back in shape.
8. Gota gain 5 more pounds before I graduate.
9. I wana do something with my hair.
10. I needa do some shopping, my medium tees don't fit.

2011-05-01T23:53:00.000-07:00

Babe finally arrived home on Friday and I missed her like I've never missed her before hahaha. Picked her up from the airport and was the happiest guy over there LOL. Welcomed her back and asked her to my prom too ;) Prom was dope on Saturday, shit went hella fast though. Today was a very slow day. Tired as hell from prom.

I REALLY wana play ball for Linfield College. I just gota hope things go my way. God is with me through tough times too and I'm believing in this situation. The suspense just makes me never wana think about everything... I need positive thoughts, that's all.

2011-04-26T21:55:00.000-07:00

Don't wana say anything early because I am aware crazy shit happens... But damn, feels good to be accepted at Linfield College.

Even if you don't respect me, I still respect you.

2011-04-26T01:00:00.000-07:00

Respect, such a strong word but doesn't get used correctly with people these days. Respect... Keep that in your head, learn every bit of it, I garuntee you you'll get some where with it.

Walnut prom is coming up FAST! Excited for that! Gota get more organized with the heads for my prom though, it's very difficult to plan a party bus -.-

I'll be wakin up in 4 hours to do my gov letter. Dammit I'm procrastinating alot now.

I MISS YOU A TON. I LOVE YOU. IM EXCITED FOR YOU TO COME BACK HOME THIS FRIDAY. EVERY TIME I CALL YOU THROUGH THE PHONECARDS I MISS YOU EVEN MORE.

Ya boyyyyy.....

Senior week

2011-04-25T00:13:00.000-07:00

This past week was senior week and it's been pretty dope with 30 minute classes. Damn sure sucks that fuckin up can cost you to not walk at graduation from here on out. Looks like theres one or two more days left of it then the regular schedule comes back. HELLA senioritis for me, I've been procrastinating on everything lately. Needa stop being so damn lazy.

All star game was a good experience on Friday. Still mad I couldn't get my shots to fall -.- I'll be definitely working on my game this week. Needa gain 7 more pounds before I graduate too... 165 is the goal. Looks like it's going to be Linfield College, just needa get accepted into the school and it looks good from there.

Babes gon for 5 days now, I miss her too much. Can't wait till she comes home though, PROM is this Saturday :) finna look fitted that's for sure. I used my phone card I had bought the other day and was finally able to talk to her on the phone while she was half way around the world. A phone card has never been so useful LOL.

So little days left of senior year, let's end it good.

I've grown up

2011-04-18T00:56:00.000-07:00

Damn, It's been almost a year and a half since I've used blogspot. I think I'll be posting my feelings here more often. Since the last time I've posted I've seen so much change in everything. Bball, study habits, socializing, and all that seems alot different now.

Where to start...
Basketball.. Damn, season was tough, I thought I had a good one and the awards came along even better, especially making the SGV Tribune all star team. Calling coaches left and right. Sending game film here and there. Trying to find a place to play at next year is pretty tough. I really hope I end up somewhere, and wherever it is, I'm down widit. God has given me an ability and I'm using it and making this something to be proud about.

As for you, I'm glad I accepted to be a good friend 2 years ago, because that good friendship we had became a best friendship and with that, we went a long way at the start of our senior year. I never thought id see myself having a girlfriend during my senior year, I thought it'd be the total opposite. But let me tell you this, spending my whole senior year doing everything we did since 12th grade first started was the most fun I have ever had. I can honestly say you made my senior year FUCKIN DOPE. Partying it up, being there for me at almost every single game, even some away games, being there for each other at our downs, picking each other up cause we were capable of it, being your boyfriend and your best friend throughout our senior year, you name it, I will fuckin remember these days.

Damn wrote so much already.
Well this is your weekend at coachella. Sounds like you had a damn good time haha good shittt. It was only 3 days long and yet I'm missing you. Let me take that back, I'm fuckin missing the shit outa you! LOL. Your coming back in a few hours but leave in a few days for the PI. I don't know how hard it's gona be while your on other side of the world for 9 days! I guess it'll be a taste of what the future has for us. I don't even wana go there yet. I'm really happy for us, I'm glad WE happened and I'm glad we gave each other the chance. I still remember what I told you a little while back and I'm not finished proving to you that you can trust me, cause I feel that there's still more room to grow. Lots more left and however long it takes I wana get there.

So many thoughts running through my head. Praying for the best of me, hoping I get to go somewhere I can play. I wouldn't mind studying and hoopin at a school near you. That'd actually... That'd actually be really dope.

ICE

2009-12-21T21:25:00.000-08:00

I'm excited for christmas. Shits been pretty chill this break. Lots of hw to do over break and i have yet to finish anything but one assignment. IDK what i even want for christmas, I'm just happy for the holidays. Alot on my mind lately, takin it one day at a time. Christmas shopping tomorrow hopefully.

CHRISTMAS IN 4 DAYS

<33

2009-12-06T19:36:00.000-08:00

Friday: Beat Claremont when Felicia, Justin, Crystal and Mat surprised me at the game with a sign, ahaha thanks for coming. Hitup some party and bounced right after, shit was wackkk. Kicked it with them at Crystals pad then came home to some yoshinoya, thank youuu :)

Saturday: Went to Walnut Rec for the scorekeeping clinic, will be making some cash off scorekeeping and reffing very soon. Practice then headed to Holly's bday, dope seeing some old faces. Ended the night on a good note.

Today: Scorekept and made an easy 20$. Stayed home for almost the whole day, played some CODMW2 and some 2K10. Last minute hw. And hoping this mission comes through tonight ;)

Busy as fk lately, excited for this bball season though. This month is gona be busy with games and I'm ready.

<33

SMILE :)

2009-11-05T21:17:00.000-08:00

Haven't blogged in such a longgg ass time now. Things have been so busy for me lately. Feels like everything just passed without me knowing.

Life has been throwing a lot at me these past couple of weeks:

-Long, never-ending bball practices
-Bball tournaments
-3.8 GPA
-Droppin money on useless things
-Hookin the homies up on cuts
-Walks in the parks
-Uke sesh's
-Walnut smashing Nogales in football
-Kickin it with the homies
-Baskin Robin soft serves
-Pulling my groin several times -_-
-Worst Halloween but the dopest Nov 1st ;)
-Late night talks
-Getting my blackberry jacked, but getting it back

Great end to October... And great start to November :)

Sick

2009-10-16T18:41:00.001-07:00

So I'm fevered up as of yesterday.
Wasn't able to study for the spanish quiz so I decided to come to school late today.
I'm surprised I was able to last 5 hours being sick at school.
Oh and these body aches are killing me too.
It's another friday night and it looks like I'm staying home again -_-

Ice

2009-10-13T20:17:00.000-07:00

Woke up very mad with the rain drops this morning.
It was TOO COLD.
Couldn't practice the whole time and I repulled my groin, so I'm out for a bit.
Grabbed some China Blossom and Joghurt then headed home.
Hardly got any HW today :)

"I can't be all that I can be if you are not all that you can be."

HECTIC

2009-10-11T16:53:00.000-07:00

Friday:
Practice ended early so we could rehearse for the last time for HC pregame show.
Ended up staying the whole game with some homies. Lost to Northview 27-7 or somethin like that.
Went home and got my ass whooped in 2K10 to end the night -_-

Saturday:
Woke up around 6 to get ready for SATs at Chino HS.
English screwed me over, and I almost fell asleep during one of the sections -__-
Headed to Taco Bell for some pregame meal then two games at APU.
2-0 beating Temescal Canyon HS and La Canada HS by 10.
Cramped up like a beezy during the second game.
Went home, got ready, then took off to school for HC.
Arrived pretty dam late, not much people there, but it was still pretty fun :)
Grabbed some boba and took pics at Cue.
"Oh HC 09' though" :)

Busy ass week and weekend. I needa catch up on sleep and HW.

Sniff sniff

2009-10-07T21:15:00.000-07:00

Allergies are kickin in, I guess I'll be using some spray shit for a while.
School was chill. I've been feeling so tired this week, 5 and a half hours of sleep past few days -_-
Picked up HC ish after practice.
I'm thinking about creating a formspring soon, but lazyness is stopping me.

Flu?

2009-10-05T23:29:00.000-07:00

Late start this morning, thank God :)
My teachers have been assigning too much HW and its been quiz/test galore -_-
I understand now when everyone says junior year is tough.
Joey and JN are sick and I hope I don't catch the flu this season. Physical + Flu shot tomorrow though.
HC is approaching and I'll be in the pregame or halftime show with some of the bball team, keep an eye out hah.

Can anyone give me some tips on gaining weight? Like seriously, I've stayed at 145 for soooo longggggg -_-

16.7

2009-10-03T22:10:00.000-07:00

Woke up today to get a physical but the clinic was closed -_-
Headed to China Blossom and Joghurt with pops, then went to practice.
Played against Los Osos and lost by 16. Played against Colony and lost by 7, should of won that game thoughh.
Body is beat as heckk. Hit the floor too many times, looks like I gota hit the weights harder.
HW in a bit then I should call it a night.

Someone pleaseeee take these off me.
Size 10

Size 10

Understand that I am not what you think I am.